Death

There has been so much death in my world the past year. First my great friend Kay. She was everything I hope to someday be. My wonderful mother in law lost her short battle with cancer in November. And my beautiful, wonderful, talented sister in law. All these people hold a place in my heart now and forever.

I don't understand why I am so blah right now. They all had great lives. So something is wrong with me. I am just so sad about all of this. I feel like I can't handle anything else that comes my way. I keep having dreams that I have cancer and die. I am so freaked out about this. I just need to talk to someone I think. But the people I would talk to are gone. What am I to do?